I’ve always thought of myself as a pacifist. I don’t like conflicts, try not to get myself involved. Disagreement and differences make me uncomfortable. I tend to give in to what others say. I would defer a decision to someone else any day, any time. This does not mean I don’t have my own opinion on things. They just kind of burble inside me as various streams of consciousness in my self-talk.
So when I had to make this important decision, I was stymied. My natural instinct was to let it go, to leave it. But I knew it was something that only I could decide for myself.
For this, this is the day of reckoning.