"This is not something that you just 'get over'. For the vast majority of people, it is
something that will haunt you for the rest of your life. You may change your behaviors, change your
beliefs about yourself and your body, give up that particular way of coping in
the world. You may learn, as I have,
that you would rather be a human than a human’s thinning shell. You may get well. But you never forget."
I have my regrets, my fears.
A past that continues to haunt me, but that I am trying not to let
become a burden.
I have my dreams, my hopes.
A future that I really look forward to, and that I am trying
not to cower from.
It’s so easy to try and blame someone, or someones, who
impacted my life in such dramatic turns.
But I’m learning, it is not so much about pointing fingers as it is
about how I react or respond to the situation.
One of my biggest learning is that at the end of the day,
this is life. And life happens. For whatever tomorrow brings, I can only deal
with it to the best of my ability.