tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-20360844925720104312024-03-13T16:05:23.490-04:00manic dEliRiuM momentDid you know there are 43 trillion possible arrangements of the Rubik's Cube? I'm convinced this must be the number that can help me define my self. Go figure!dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.comBlogger912125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-35588697978570474442014-02-07T19:54:00.003-05:002014-02-07T19:54:59.809-05:00a LeSsON leArNt<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">For all they say about change being the only constant, I
learned otherwise...</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>That pain is a constant.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>That pain is not personal.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>That pain is life.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">A simple lesson. Yet
most profound.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #660000;">And I am humbled.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #660000;">.</span></span></div>
dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-48303645048194063312013-08-26T23:10:00.001-04:002013-08-26T23:10:15.596-04:00hoLLoW<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">We were a hodgepodge group, wandering the three rooms
aimlessly. In the kitchen we
fidgeted. At the reception we milled. By the boardroom we shuddered. That confined space flared tempers, harshed
words, lost selves. Everywhere one turns,
someone else is watching. Watching you
watching another watching me. Watching
for the familiar. Watching for the
unknown. Watching in wonder. Watching for dusk to cede to the moon. Watching for dawn to bestow the sun. Watching in doubt.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>Eventually, it was the hollowness in their eyes that got to
me.</i></span></div>
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dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-54672248535500722382013-08-13T22:40:00.000-04:002013-08-13T22:40:01.255-04:00and,<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">when you come upon</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">the fluffiest white clouds you can see</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">please pluck a handful</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">just for me</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-50486251694847016042013-07-01T22:08:00.000-04:002013-07-07T20:39:08.067-04:00dEraiLeD<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">We talked about becoming derailed today. About derailment as a temporary diversion. About derailment as fertile ground for
gaining new learning, new experiences.
About derailment as a means to an end.
Except in my world of black and white, moving forward and becoming
derailed are mutually exclusive.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Once upon a time, I believed in utopia. I believed in a perfect world inhabited by
perfect beings achieving perfect things.
Except in my world of darkness and light, reality is often far removed
from perfection.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I had many dreams growing up. Fanciful ones like winning the Nobel Prize or
becoming a farmer’s wife. Realistic ones
like going to college, earning my own keep, getting married. I invested myself into every dream I could
hope to achieve, found myself beaten down and derailed at many points. As if for every step I take to move forward,
I am forced to take two steps back.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>“It’s just life”, I console myself.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span></div>
dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-50460949666148973702013-06-07T18:42:00.001-04:002013-06-07T18:42:37.666-04:00tHinKInG<div class="MsoNormal">
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Maybe, just maybe, this is not meant to be.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Sometimes, just sometimes, even I get weary of me.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">They say, “Follow your dreams.”</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">They didn’t say where those dreams would lead me.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">They tell me about one door closing and other doors opening.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">They didn’t tell me so many doors would close on me.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I used to believe in love and life, laughter and dreams.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Now I see more dark skies than light, oppressive and mean.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">All I wanted was to help others.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">All I learned is that I don’t know how to help
myself.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Reality is as reality goes.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Sobering, suffocating, stunning.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Just what life is.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>just. life.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span></div>
dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-37645716283714262772013-05-12T22:30:00.002-04:002013-05-12T22:31:25.223-04:00uNTitLeD<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've thought about the why. I don't know, and yet I know too much.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've thought about the what. That I, wield in my hands.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've thought about the who. Just me, myself, and I.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">I've thought about the when. In dark of night, light of day.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">But</span><br />
<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>I've not been able to think about the where.</i></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-7266004479499491432013-04-09T23:07:00.000-04:002013-04-09T23:08:14.665-04:00yOU sAiD, i SAid<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">"You looked as if you didn't need anyone," you said.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">"But those are the ones who need the most," I said. "Don't you know that?"</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">"I do now," you said. "Too late."</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><span style="color: #cc0000; font-style: italic;">"Never too late to know something,"</span><span style="color: #660000;"> I said.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-5909321819994812622013-03-27T23:00:00.002-04:002013-03-27T23:00:57.342-04:00RunNiNG oUt<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">of time.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #660000;">Without reason, much less rhyme.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #660000;"><br /></span></span>
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #660000;">Just running out</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #660000;">of time.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-26776327381549617892013-02-21T22:05:00.000-05:002013-02-21T22:05:06.214-05:00so cOMe<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">He will come. Sooner rather than later.</span><div>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">And this time. When he comes.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>I will embrace him with open arms.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span></div>
dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-83467257185560668942013-01-12T08:47:00.000-05:002013-01-12T08:47:02.756-05:00a LoNE<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Some people become better people through trials and
tribulations. Some people become lesser
people through pain and suffering. Some
people exhibit a strength of character that is awesome to witness and
heartrending to watch. Sometimes their single-minded
determination to fight (or die trying) moves me; yet most times their unwillingness
to give up (and never say die) scares me.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">It scares me because once the veil has been lifted, the
clarity is blinding. It scares me how small
one can become, how crippled one can be.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>It reminds me how the self is a lone.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span></div>
dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-25426318550934454442012-12-30T21:33:00.000-05:002013-01-09T22:02:19.353-05:00fOR m & D<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>"What cannot be said, will get wept."</i></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">(Sappho)</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-28363229292937930922012-12-23T23:50:00.000-05:002012-12-23T23:50:20.161-05:00sTreNgTH<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">"If you're strong enough to take that blade and draw it across your skin.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">If you're strong enough to take those pills and swallow them when no one's home.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">If you're strong enough to tie that rope and hang it from the ceiling fan.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">If you're strong enough to jump off that bridge, my friend.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">You are strong enough, to live."</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #274e13; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">(Iain S. Thomas)</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-19878204885133001062012-12-10T22:32:00.000-05:002013-01-09T22:01:59.491-05:00diSpeNSabLe<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">My director likes to tell everyone in the lab to write “how-to”
guides. His concern is that if anyone was
to get hit by a car, someone else can easily step in, take over, and maintain
continuity of the research projects.
While somewhat macabre, I see his point.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Thing is, no one is truly indispensable. Anyone could get hit by a car any time and
the world would continue to go on. We
may think we are, or someone close to us is, indispensable. But that is because our minds are incapable
of conceptualizing a time and space without us, without that significant other. Yet when we die, life goes on for everyone
else. Time goes on. Work goes on. Perhaps with some adjustments, minor or
otherwise, that accounts for the fact of your absence. As things fall apart, so things go on.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>My heart aches for the camel who broke his back on the last straw.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span></div>
dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-59448152631644159492012-10-23T22:54:00.000-04:002012-10-23T22:55:56.508-04:00fRieNd!<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I have missed you. So
much. So very much. I think of you often. And wonder what you are doing. How you are doing.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">There is so much of you I remember. So much of us. Memories.
They are not kind. Yet I hold on to
them. So desperately. So frantically. Because you held me up. Because you held me together. Because you kept me safe.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>Friend, I miss you so much it hurts.</i></span></div>
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dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-71270211926490666302012-09-21T22:33:00.006-04:002012-10-23T22:54:36.511-04:00iT<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">came back.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>Not with a whimper but with a bang.</i></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-15917105813613144362012-08-27T23:48:00.001-04:002012-08-27T23:49:02.769-04:00gO ELeGantLy<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">"It is tasteless to prolong life artificially. I have done my share, it is time to go. I will do it elegantly."</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">(Albert Einstein)</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-13255459498556313292012-08-18T23:48:00.001-04:002012-08-18T23:48:12.272-04:00fOLLoW<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">the moment of bliss...</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">From whence to where I do not know.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><br /></span>
<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>Except that words are easier said than actions done.</i></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-50961768416462202102012-08-15T22:15:00.000-04:002012-08-15T22:15:51.853-04:00rOugHnESs<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;"><i>has taken on whole new layers of meanings.</i></span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-69695149864223331782012-07-24T22:27:00.002-04:002012-07-24T22:27:13.667-04:00juSt<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><i>breathe...</i></span><div>
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">.</span></div>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-12868703160740237412012-07-13T21:40:00.006-04:002012-07-13T21:41:13.681-04:00fLoODgatEs<span style="background-color: white; color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I've been feeling a bit pensive. Not always a good sign. Don't get me wrong, I love my random moments
of excruciating insight. But they tend
to leave me a little winded, like someone punched me in the stomach, hard. And I am left with these nuggets of raw
emotions – too precious to hold in my hands, too painful to share with someone
else.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><i>Too hard to keep the floodgates of memories from opening.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">.</span></div>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-1117585279998309562012-07-04T22:41:00.003-04:002012-07-04T22:41:30.118-04:00hOLiDaYs<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Holidays... can be strangely disquieting times.</span><br />
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">.</span>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-68013400291949530212012-06-16T00:41:00.001-04:002012-06-16T00:47:05.320-04:00wAsTEd<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #660000;">"This is not something that you just 'get over'. For the vast majority of people, it is
something that will haunt you for the rest of your life. You may change your behaviors, change your
beliefs about yourself and your body, give up that particular way of coping in
the world. You may learn, as I have,
that you would rather be a human than a human’s thinning shell. You may get well. </span></span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="color: #cc0000;">But you never forget.</span><span style="color: #660000;">"</span></i><br />
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<span style="color: #38761d;"><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">(Marya Hornbacher, </span><i style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">Wasted</i><span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">)</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">.</span></div>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-9612733572836750182012-06-12T00:41:00.002-04:002012-06-12T00:41:55.116-04:00...<i style="color: #cc0000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">They all went away, and I went down.</i><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">.</span></div>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-80945958857406519562012-06-02T22:12:00.002-04:002012-06-02T22:12:57.249-04:00iNExpLiCAbLe<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I can’t say how, but that my life has changed.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I have my regrets, my fears.
A past that continues to haunt me, but that I am trying not to let
become a burden.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">I have my dreams, my hopes.
A future that I really look forward to, and that I am trying
not to cower from.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">It’s so easy to try and blame someone, or someones, who
impacted my life in such dramatic turns.
But I’m learning, it is not so much about pointing fingers as it is
about how I react or respond to the situation.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">One of my biggest learning is that at the end of the day,
this is life. And life happens. For whatever tomorrow brings, I can only deal
with it to the best of my ability.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><i>And that, is good enough for me.</i></span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">.</span></div>dEliRiuMhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04002053799460552629noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2036084492572010431.post-6804777158925122742012-05-31T22:26:00.000-04:002012-05-31T22:26:43.164-04:00for M<span style="color: #660000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">For you, M, I offer my love, my prayers, my hopes, my dreams.
That your love triumphs, that your
worries prove unfounded, that you find the happiness you yearn for. But most importantly, I wish you peace. The kind of peace that runs deep inside you,
that fills you, that gives you true strength to persevere. The kind of peace that cradles your intuition
and brings you rest.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #cc0000; font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><i>Your forever friend.</i></span><br />
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