Somewhere along the way, I lost a lot of confidence, in myself. Take this current madness of applying to graduate schools. Back when I was younger, I usually had one choice of school that I knew would take me in, so I never had to worry about Plan Bs and back-up strategies. Right now, I’m not so sure anymore. I feel a little like a headless chicken applying to multiple schools and then second-guessing whether I’ll get accepted, whether to apply to more schools. Life no longer operates with the certainty it once did.
I might fail and I need to be prepared for that eventuality.